Hope for Christmas
by Shana Galen
Part III
Anabelle
couldn’t breathe as Viscount Redmond—no, Colin now; he’d asked her to call him
Colin—pulled her into his arms. She was dimly aware of the string quartet
playing, the movement of couples twirling about in her periphery, the scent of evergreens,
and that sprig of mistletoe hanging above them.
And then
she knew nothing but the feel of Colin’s arms. They were strong and firm. She felt
safe in them, as she’d always known she would. She felt like she’d been waiting
for this moment since she’d been six years old—though her expectations now were
a bit different than they had been at six.
He bent
and brushed his lips over hers, and the eyes she had closed opened in surprise.
Warmth radiated from her lips, making her whole body aware of the contact. Her
skin tingled and flushed, and she had the urge to pull him close, to kiss him
more passionately.
But before
she might act on impulse and behave in a way unbecoming to a young lady, his
hand tightened on her back. She thought he might grasp her firmly and kiss her
in the way she longed he would—his lips slanting over hers until she was dizzy
with desire.
Instead,
he stepped back, looking down at her with a mixture of shock and…anger?
“I’m
sorry,” he said, stepping back again. “It was meant to be a kiss between
friends.”
She
blinked at him in confusion. “You have nothing to apologize for.” The kiss had
been chaste. Far more chaste than she had wanted.
“Your servant,
Mrs. Farthing.” He took her hand, bent to kiss it, and then moved away.
Anabelle was left alone under the mistletoe, her cheeks burning with shame.
It had
been a mistake to get her hopes up. Why had she listened to Eva? Why had she
allowed her to play matchmaker and solicit Colin to dance the first dance with
her? It was obvious he was just being kind. He didn’t want her. She would
always be his friend’s little sister. Nothing more.
A footman
passed with a tray of champagne, and she snatched a glass and drank it down,
moving out from under the mistletoe. As she made her way to the corner of the
room, she grasped another glass of champagne while she stood against the wall,
decorating the walls as she had when she’d been younger.
She’d
forgotten those awful nights as a wallflower. At balls she had prayed a man
would ask her to dance and then prayed one wouldn’t. She could never think of
anything witty or entertaining to say when she danced, and awkward silence was
the hallmark of any set she accepted.
In those
days she’d had a chaperone who had limited her to one glass of champagne a
night. She was a widow with no chaperone now. She could drink as much as she
liked. The champagne made her forget her embarrassment, made it easier to watch
Colin dancing with one woman and then another as the night wore on.
“There you
are!”
Anabelle
looked up and into Eva’s concerned eyes. “Here I am,” she said, giggling a bit
at the way her words sort of slurred together.
“I have
been looking for you for the past half hour. What are you doing all the way
over here?”
Anabelle looked
around. She was sitting beside a heavy velvet drapery, almost obscured by it,
in fact. “I’m decorating the walls,” she said. It sounded rather amusing when
she said it aloud, and she giggled again.
“You are
foxed!” her friend said in surprise. “How much have you drunk?”
“I don’t
know.” Anabelle looked at the little collection of champagne glasses she’d gathered
about her. “One, two, four. Wait, that’s not right.”
Eva took
her arm. “Never mind that. You had better go to bed before anyone sees you.”
This was her house party, and she took her duties as hostess seriously. “I’ll
walk you to your room.”
“You
shouldn’t leave the ball.”
Eva
dragged her out of the ballroom and into the foyer where the grand staircase
ascended toward the upper floors. “What happened?” Eva asked at the base of the
stairs. “I saw you dancing with Redmond. Did he say something that upset you?”
Redmond—Colin.
The pain lanced through her fresh as the first time. Where was her champagne?
“Nothing like that,” she said, tears stinging her eyes. She did not want to
cry. The last thing she need tonight was more pity.
“Then what
is wrong?”
“I—He—”
How to explain? How to make Eva, the beautiful, wealthy and happily married
Lady Dorsey understand what it was to be plain, shy, widowed Mrs. Farthing. Eva
loved her and wanted everyone else to love her as well. But if Colin was kind
to her and danced with her, it was only because he was polite or felt some
loyalty to his friend and her older brother.
“My lady.”
The housekeeper bustled out from the servants’ door near the stairs. “There’s a
problem with the tart. Cook says it’s come out dry.”
Eva’s
hands went to her cheeks. “Oh, no.”
“Cook has
some a sauce she might add, but she wanted you to taste it first.”
“Of
course. I’ll speak with her at once. There must be some way to salvage the
supper.” She started away and then seemed to remember Anabelle. She turned
back. “Oh, but Anabelle. Can you wait just a moment, dear? I’ll be right back.”
Anabelle
forced herself to smile and nod. “I think I’ll go lie down. We’ll talk
tomorrow.”
“Yes. I’ll
come to you first thing in the morning. I’ll have Cook send up some tea.”
Anabelle
watched her hurry away, knowing Cook would be far too busy to send tea to an
inebriated guest.
She turned
and started up the stairs, but on the third or fourth stair, she must have
forgotten to lift her skirts because she stumbled and only prevented a fall by
catching the railing and holding it tightly.
“Do you
need some help, Mrs. Farthing?”
She looked
down and Lord Haggerston was coming toward the stairs. He was a man of fifty or
so with a bushy mustache and a permanently red nose. He held a flask, and she
wondered if he had stepped out of the ball to drink from its contents.
“Thank
you, my lord, but I am fine.”
“Going to
bed so soon?” he asked, ignoring her words and starting up the stairs behind her.
Anabelle lifted her skirt and continued upward.
“I’m
tired.”
“Is that
what they call it these days?” He was right behind her, and she jumped when she
felt his fingers pinch her bottom.
“My lord!”
She jumped and whirled around.
“Sorry!”
He held up his hands. “Shouldn’t have done that.”
“My lord,
I think you should return to the ball.”
“I need to
fetch something from my chambers. Lady Haggerston sent me. I can’t return empty
handed, you know?”
Anabelle
narrowed her eyes at him.
“I won’t
pinch you again, Mrs. Farthing. In fact, I’ll go first, if you like.” And he
passed her on the stairs, disappearing toward his room at the top. Anabelle
waited a few moments, until the earth stopped spinning, and then resumed
climbing. She was almost to her room. She’d strip off this tight dress, take her
hair down, and have a good cry. Colin Parrish didn’t want her. Now she knew for
certain, and she could stop pining for him. When the snow cleared, she would go
to her sister’s house. She would play the amusing aunt for her two little nephews
and try and enjoy the rest of the holiday.
At the top
of the stairs, she turned toward her room, but she made it no more than three
or four steps before rough hands grabbed her about the waist and pushed her up
against the wall.
“What—”
But Haggerston’s mouth on hers cut off her cries. His thick tongue plunged
between her lips and his meaty hands groped at her bodice. She stomped on his
foot and tried to push him back, but her ball slippers were meager defense.
Wrenching her head to the side, she gulped in air. “Get off me. Stop!”
“Oh, don’t
play coy with me. I saw you looking at me all through dinner.”
“No!” But
he put his hand over her mouth and began fumbling under her skirts. She tried
to wriggle away, but up seemed down and down seemed up. She was dizzy and
confused, and he was so much bigger than she. His hand closed painfully on her
thigh, and she screamed. With his hand over her mouth, she knew no one would
hear.
***
Colin’s
feet hurt. He’d been dancing for the last hour. He’d been afraid to stop
moving. If he took two minutes for himself, he’d remember the smell of her, the
feel of her in his arms, the taste of her. It had been a very meagre taste, not
nearly enough.
What was
wrong with him? She was Edward’s little sister. He’d thought a peck on the lips
harmless at Christmas time, but when his lips had brushed hers, he’d felt a
powerful longing to pull her close and kiss her—really kiss her. She looked so beautiful tonight. She didn’t look
at all like the little girl he remembered. And she’d been easy to talk to, easy
to dance with. How could he have known the kiss would be like a punch in the
gut?
His feet
still hurt, and the ball had only really begun. He shouldn’t have worn these
new pumps. He’d go upstairs and change. Even if his old pumps were a bit worn,
at least he’d be comfortable.
He started
up the stairs, but halfway up he paused at the sound of a scuffle. Was it a
scuffle or two lovers whose rendezvous he’d interrupted? He almost turned
around to go back downstairs, and then he heard what sound like a No.
Colin took
the stairs two at a time. At the landing, he looked one way then the other.
There was Anabelle and that arse Haggerston with his hands all over her. Colin
didn’t stop to think that perhaps she’d wanted Haggerston’s advances, he
charged forward, grasping Haggerston’s coat and pulling him off her. He slammed
the man against the opposite wall then looked over his shoulder to see
Anabelle’s tear-stained face.
“Are you
hurt? Did he hurt you?”
She shook
her head. “I’m fine. I told him to stop, but he-he didn’t listen.”
Colin looked
back at Haggerston, who had his hands raised. “Just a misunderstanding, old
boy. I thought she wanted a bit of company.”
Colin
leaned close to Haggerston. “Touch her again, and I’ll give you a
misunderstanding you’ll never put right.” He pulled Haggerston off the wall and
shoved him hard down the hallway. Haggerston stumbled, fell, then got to his
feet. When he looked back at them, hate burned in his eyes.
“You can
act all high and mighty now.” He pointed at Anabelle. “But we’ll see how you
feel when the world finds out what I know.”
Colin
looked at Anabelle, but she looked as lost as he. She wiped tears from her
cheeks.
“What are
you going on about?” Colin asked, moving in front of her, to shield her from
Haggerston.
Haggerston
smiled, a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “Just that Farthing wasn’t quite
the saint he appeared.” With that, he stumbled away.
Colin
turned back to Anabelle. “Let me help you to your room.”
But she
was staring after Haggerston. “What did he say? What does that mean? James—he
didn’t even know Lord Haggerston.”
Colin
shook his head. He hadn’t known her late husband at all, but then it appeared
there was a chance Anabelle hadn’t known him as well as she thought either.
© Shana Galen
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